Day 2, jo

Kristi and I did an anusara class at 10 am at crunch this morning. I also meditated before I went to the gym. THe new alarm that I bought beeps every 5 minutes which is not very conducive to meditating :( I think I will go back to my phone, I kinda like the vibration as an alarm better anyways, it's a gentler way to be told to stop. I have just started reading eat, prey, love by elizabeth gilbert and I am already enthralled after 35 pages. I really identify with this woman. I wish that I could just sit down and read it all day. But I have to make costumes for a student film and I only have the next week to work on it, uninterrupted by school work, so I should really be doing that. I also want to start busking in the subways. I met a girl last night who makes $50 an hour playing. I really need money and don't want to ask for more from my dad. So I was thinking this would be a great way to make some cash and improve my live performance. It would be cool to record some rough demos to maybe sell also. I have so many things that I want to do, that it is hard to focus on design. Because I'm not sure that it is what I really want to do anymore... I wonder and hope that I might be able to just do music when I am done school. I like working on the computer though, I think it might be cool to design a collection of textile patterns and try to sell/license them to fashion companies. The thought of working at an office is pretty unappealing, though. This blog is sort of becoming more of a journal it seems. Is all this too personal to make public? The yoga class this morning was good, but I also felt kind of cranky during it, like my body didn't want to be put in the positions it was being put in. My hips are also extremely tight, one more so than the other. I wonder how far I'll be able to come in getting them to loosen after a month straight of yoga. Mostly I wonder lately about self development, trying to be conscious of who I am, who I want to become and how to get there. I've felt really good the last few days, mood-wise. and I want to maintain this feeling, so I will try to be as productive as I can. For the next week I'm going to try to focus on eliminating indecision. I will give myself exactly one minute to make each decision that presents itself. this way I won't allow myself to dwell on thinking about things for too long. I think this will be really good for me I waste alot of time trying to figure out what I should do first on my life's ever-growing to do list.