day 4- no yoga :(

I know technically we were allowed to take off one day a week, but I wanted to go... and then I got all stressed out about designing cosutmes for this movie and I kind of went into a downward spiral of anxiety and then sadness, thinking about things that aren't even related, but everything seems related when I get like that. Anyways, I didn't end up doing any work anyways after getting myself into such a state. and I was thinking I wouldn't go play the open mic tonight, 'cause I should work. but I think breaking plans and islolating myself is partly responsible for making me feel shitty in the first place. So I'm going to go play. and then I'm going to wake up in the morning and work. and I'm not going to dwell on feeling shitty. There's a quote I like in eat, prey, love where gilbert quotes her guru saying: "you should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over". tomorrow will be better. everything passes and they are only thoughts and feelings, they are not me.